Hmmm…He is risen, he is risen indeed, hallelujah?

So many of my faith thoughts are preprogrammed in me, and not all in a detrimental way…but sometimes in this adult life amongst thoughts of life admin, parenting, sweets (takes up an unusually large thought time, especially we now have a local sweet shop), wild swimming, our furry family members (not Mike), events and friends up pops Jesus in my mind.

Which I feel might conjure (weird choice of verb) up images of the Jesus statue in Dogma film, like cheesy and smiling and pointing out? Which isn’t how it pops up in my head.

I have never completely left my faith, maybe because I sang devotedly in my youth that I would always stand and never give up at summer camps or worship nights? Or maybe because I do still believe? Probably a bit of both.

Is some of the Christianity I grew up with problematic…um yes. Have I made different choices of how I raise my girls … yes too.

But I also hold the value that a belief in something more, the spiritual element of us, is pretty vital to all of us.

The space to explore that at a deeper level, to question, to experiment almost. Is a very crucial part to my identity, to feeling known, loved and free. I am sure there are other ways people feel those things, but Jesus well that was/is a pretty cornerstone part to me.

But how do I explore that without the Alpha course, conferences, so much expectation?

I sense God in lots of ways…not confided by environment or gender. But Jesus (the son of God, there person element of the trinity)…well I find him harder to meet with outside of a tent/bible study/ church. It feels like an all or nothing situation? One I am unsure I am willing to go down, but equally unsure I am happy to block off?

Intreuiged to hear other opinions? So please do share. Also I hope none of this conversation makes you feel uncomfortable or distanced, because what I hope most is that we can come together and bring up other ideas, discuss and share. Some might call that ‘be church’? 😜